Off to a Rocky Start!

Monday 7/18
As for as my diet, I ate pretty healthy with moderation until dinnertime. I had a headache all day and was planning to go to yoga straight from work, but on the drive home I panicked about when and what I was going to eat for dinner, since the class is from 7-8:30 and that would mean I wouldn't eat until 9. I was sleepy too, and rather power through it, I ended up going home. It was really downhill  from there. I took some Alleve, ate a cucumber, then gobbled down lots of Chinese peanuts and anchovies, some other food I can't even remember and took a nap until 9. Not only did I bust my diet, I skipped the exercise for the day.

The plus side is that later, I woke up and made some healthy food for the week. Lima bean puree and succotash. Although I now know that I should be more conscious of the nibbling that goes on when I am cooking!

So I am learning about myself. That when I feel there is scarcity, I tend to want to eat more or grab what's emotionally satisfying but not necessarily good for me. I need to plan a lot ahead of time to make this diet work. The more busy I am, the harder it is to keep it. Eating is sometimes like smoking for me. I eat when I am hungry, anxious, want to relax, am tired. I need to just learn to be in those states or take more appropriate actions.

Tuesday 7/19
I got up at 5:30am to feed the animals and water the garden because I needed to get to work earlier. Luckily it rained, so I did not have to water, so I ended up taking Chief to the park for a brisk 1/2 hour walk. I was also able to do 15 minutes of yoga in addition to my meditation, which felt great! I felt good, I had my healthy lunch and dinner packed for work. But what happened was I stayed in Jersey City at the printing plant for longer than I thought and I left my lunch at the office thinking I would return in time. They ordered Italian for us. There were not a lot of vegetarian low-cal options. I ended up eating eggplant rollatini and ate about half.  When I don't eat my own food, it gets hard for me to stick to my diet. I feel like I don't eat as healthy. So the only way I can deal with it is smaller portions of something that is high in calories. But that's super hard for me. It will also be hard eating out with friends or family. Because I don't want to be fussy or draw attention to myself. It's going to take more work to diet out skilfully.

I also got my period more than a week early! Which explains my headache the day before.

When I went to see Mom at Cedar Manor, I brought and shared my food, which was good, because Mom's dinner didn't seem so good. But the night at Scarb derailed my diet again. I only did a short walk to CVS and back. I just wanted to relax and so I overindulged on some snacks.

Today is another day, and I have gotten off to a good start. I did a yoga class in the morning and will take Chief for a walk later. I'm off for the rest of the week, so maybe that will help me to get back on track. It has been challenging to introduce more exercise to my day and eat less. I need to find more time in my day. Maybe I will try to get up earlier.